i miss my two colleagues really badly. I miss Sujun whacking me whenever she get excited talking about her ec, I miss Siew Ee offering insight to the way people act. I miss both of them a lot. So much whenever I pass by their cubicle I will look inside only to see empty desk and chairs, and get myself disappointed even though I expected it.

I miss taking bus to Connection 1 and eating the bah chor mee with them and buying Gongcha. 

August would have been perfect without their departure. 

Like seriously perfect. damn. 

Now I have to survive on my self entertainment, which eh, apparently is serving me well so far. -.-

thanks god for my childish-ness?

I don't know whether to laugh or cry LOL.

July!

urghh it's end of july already. ): had to bid farewell to one of my friend at work soon. but it's okay, we should meet up soon again!! :) and next week i will have to bid farewell to another friend at work, sigh, and then 1 month later, I will be bidding farewell to my workplace and probably start school. Used "probably" because I have yet to be confirm (but i believe the chances are pretty high).

Well, I would say July is a spontaneous month. Having last minute meet up, cancellation at last minute, change of plan (so often i lost count) so on and so forth. Went for various gatherings which makes me happy, makes me moody, but what's left to stay now is happy mood. :D probably got to thank luck for finding this job at SGH. 

There's this day when I was very disappointed and I felt moody even the next day, and my disappointment ended when I had lunch with my friends in SGH. Nope, i didn't talked about it, but it just ended. just like this. sometimes I'm fascinated by how my mind works. :) 

Hmm wait, there's actually 2, but the another one is my fault for misinterpreting the sms. I re-read again and realised I totally got the meaning wrong, and I hurried to clarify and clear everything up.

Well, but overall, this month has been a pleasant month. I have to thank my current workplace because the environment makes me a happy person. The previous few months before I started working in SGH was the darkest moment in my life, lifeless and sad person the environment molded me into. I can feel the depression in me even when I was with friends, and I lived everyday (including weekends) thinking "damn, i have to start work soon). that sucks, and that accompany me all the way until weekday comes and I have to work.

But now, no matter where I'm, I'm happy. :D well, not always happy but generally joyful. it's a feeling i hope it wouldn't disappear soon. 

Well, i'm starting to limit myself to 2 days out per week starting from the last week of July. i need balance. and I need a new notebook because my current notebook is going to be finish up soon. 

next month is probably the month to go with the flow, as according to my friend who i have to bid farewell to on Monday. ): and i hope that flow has better be a smooth one, like really really smooth.

okay shit, i miss blogging. i miss typing all the thoughts I had and then backspace backspace as and when I like. but nope, I'm lazy to maintain both a blog and a hand written diary. so, once in a moonlight i will be back. okay, probably once in a month. hahahaha, see, i love typing random thoughts like this.

June

June has been an expensive and fruitful month. I felt like I gone through so much during this month, I broke and mend a friendship, I met new people and people who I had not met for so long and I must say all this events made my June a memorable one. 

The new people I've met makes me think that fate is crucial. I met someone who I've known for 2 years and did chat at times but it wasn't until that day when I believe fate is crucial. It felt like.. everything that happened that day just fall nicely. 

And I met someone who resembles another person so much I still find it hard to believe I had the opportunity to meet someone so identical. Really. I realised I have never felt this different for so many years, 4.5 years I think? 

And right now, in my workplace, I met another two people whose characters are refreshing, for example, they love pigeon watching. And they make my life a good one, and we connect in a way such that I feel like I could tell them everything, and we just known one another! :)))) And to have someone to discuss observations with me feels good. :)

I'm still penning down all my activities in pen and I'm enjoying it still. At least I have my Facebook to look through my random thoughts at times and my Itouch to look through all the photos I took. :)

I'm enjoying being a little secretive. :D 

work is pretty good, like my colleagues uses Face-book and they chat during office hours. so yup, I'm on Face-book for 80% of the time but chatting with my colleagues, maybe not. ): cos there's no one to talk to? tee hee, but it's okay la, I'm fine with it, since it's just a temporary 3 months job. :)


I think I might not be updating this space as often because I'm moving back to hand written journal/diary. :)


speaking of which, I need a apple product so badly. touch/phone/pad, I just need one of them desperately. not to mention, this past year without my itouch is miserable.

argh, can't upload my day 6 and 7 into photo-bucket. i need to blog about them because I have forgotten quite a part of the days there. ):

YAY!

friendship. friends comes and go. y years of memories. ouch ouch ouch ouch oops shit. 

 

make my weekend a guilty and worried one. 

but phew, everything's good. :D

i feel good now, like I've just discover another hidden gem or something, well, it is la, friendship of y years does not come by easy.

and and and and I just got a job! YAY!!! I'm getting worried as the days pass by without any good news yet (and it's only 1 week?) and I went for this interview and I was immediately confirmed.

oh, and, I auctally printed my o lvls transcript on my NP transcript this morning, like 2am in the morning? i was still wondering why is that paper particularly thick and why is the print like this (NP results together with O lvl results on a same page) then i saw the NP chop and i was like... OMG SHIT.

so I had to run down to NP today. grrr, tiring day. went to SGH Outram Park, then to Raffles Place, then to NP, leave NP and return to NP, reached home, then to JP to meet friend, then finally home again.

cos I'm starting work tmr, no more butter factory tonight for me. ): ): ): i have never been to butter factory ever and I wanna try flaming drink again! i'm determined to overcome flaming lor!!

finally finally, my past week has been miserable because I'm not generating any income at all. finally those miserable days are over! or maybe not, but at least I can stop worrying about $$$. shit, it's like i've just confirmed i'm a slave to money. ): i don't want leh. 

but okay la, heng-fully, Yuling inspired me by making a card for me on graduation day and I've finally decided that I should be much more generous ( in terms of $$) to my friends than before :D i still can't forget how surprised and touched I'm when I received her card and flowers from them. it's like the flowers don't come cheap, and they just spent it on me?!

speaking of which, the flowers are withering already...... ): ): ): ):

Misconceptions

random but LOLLLLL, i was suprised that Kopitiam in Causeway Point actually sells MMB? but hmmm, not as good as JiDeChi nor the one in Taiwan. but for the price.. hmmmm. :p  after that, we travel to a field with a hump near Causeway Point which all along, i thought is going to be a hill and I thought I really had to climb (which is cool!) but nahhh, after I reached, i realized it's a field with a hump. and then haha, all I wanted was to fly kite there.
anyway soon after some photos, it starts to rain and damn, it was so humid grrr hard to stand. ): heng my junior brought his umbrella, if not ... gg. so we went back to Causeway Point and decided to go for dinner, and we kinda randomly picked NEX.
well, then at NEX i said "stupid things", as defined by my junior, which origins from a misconception, and i went rounds around the misconception which led to even more misconceptions and confusion, and things almost got out of hand. but okay, things are cleared up now. phew. and I didn't realize i actually know my junior close to 6 years already.  whatever, I feel like I'm 19 still. :D