Singyi

Matter of the Past
November 2007 - April 2008

Today’s the last day of the 5 month plus holidays. School’s starting tomorow. OMG, I’m so excited yet nervous. L Excited because poly.. it’s yet another new chapter of my life, and I can make new friends. ^^ Nervous... because I’m all alone in my course. What if I cant make any new friends?

I’ve auctally done rather little things during the holidays. I still remember how far and long April seem to me when I was working in Zara NAC, which I quit halfway. It’s like even January will never come when I was working there.

So I quit. And spend 2 weeks staying at home and hunting for new job. So I found a new job at Bukit Batok but just 2 month, I was asked to leave. Tsk tsk. And I hardly earn even $2k for the 2 months. But at least I did learn Chinese Medicine names, at least I had the opportunity to try out new things, like, walking that path from my workplace to IMM/ Jurong East, and enjoy the sencery on the way.

My workmate :)

And then, January 28 came, the day which seems so long away had already been a matter of the past. I still remember how excited everyone was, they had their 12 choices written out, excited about the whole thing and confident of the results that they will be getting. The moment we had waited for for this 5 years is going to arrive, and then, within a twink of eyeblink, it’s already matter of the past.

And then Feb 18 came. Another day which seems like it will never come had auctally been matter of a few months already. 6am in the morning Posting results are out. I was so sicken with the thought of going to SP daily for Clean Energy. I cant even sleep even thought I was tired. In the end, I appeal for AE, the course which I had never ever thought of going in at first because of the word “Electronics”. Hahaha. But I got in anyway.

Then came Feb 27, the Appeal Results came. I was so surprised my appeal was successful! So the first sms which I reply to, which was Ellin’s msg, I put a lot of !!! and YAHOOOOO. Hahaha, I thought it wouldnt be successful!!

So the months passed by and it’s already April right now. 6 months just pass unknowingly since O levels. I’m still preoccupied by the thought that “O levels” are just over. It’s just like last month when I took the paper, but it’s auctally half a year already. O level seems to be such a far away paper for the last 5 years (secondary school), but it’s already matter of the past already. Secondary school seems to be forever, and Poly seems to be rather long later on, but then, I’m entering Poly tomorrow.

Before soon, Poly is a matter of the past.

Before soon, Secondary school is a matter of a decade ago.
Before soon, I will be the old granny by the roadside remembering how my secondary life was when I saw those young girls then walking by me.

I remember how much I wanted to get out of Secondary school, but then, even though I’m not missing it, it just hurt to know that Secondary school life is already impossible to repeat again. It’s like those days are never going to return, what lies ahead is the future. Worst of all, it’s hurt more to know that I will never be young again.

Maybe Poly life isnt going to be good, and maybe I would be complaining about how lonely I was there, but then, it’s gonna be matter of the past one day. Good or bad, it’s okay, because, it’s gonna be matter of the past one day.

Pardon me, I’m feeling rather down right now because I cant get used to the fact that I’m auctally getting into Poly, another new chapter of my life. Worst of all, down because 20 years old is no
longer a WOW number for me. 2 more years and.. OMG.. I’m feeling down again. All sort of emotions are getting to me. What a magnet I am huh!

Year 2010 seems to be so far in the past, and I thought of putting that as a deadline, but then, it’s gonna to be..

Hahahah,
Matter of the past soon.

OMG, how scary can the future be!
But then, Hahahah,
Future will soon be matter of the past!

HAHAHA, FRIENDS!
GAMBETTE FOR THE FUTURE WHICH WILL SOON BE MATTER OF THE PAST.