Singyi

-Memories part II-



And then, primary school was normal, just like an typical kids. Going to school. Getting back from school. Blah blah blah. I thought Primary school were sweet.At least Lee Woon will laugh at my cold jokes. I know, it's easy geting high with her. I tease her, call her name, but yet she still praised me, never called me names, and never tease me. Maybe she did, but somehow, it dont hurts me. haha. Staying back everyday at school to play badminton. She accompany me. But sehe's too good. And I'm too baddddd..!!



Den came Secondary life, from my present situation, I struggling. Struggling not to drop down, struggling up to everything. Sturggle struggle struggle. Struggling to get an balance, struggling to hold on my belief, struggling not to leave like they are. But the only change that doesnt change is that everything changes. Break the sentence up and you will get the meaning.



I thought the last year should be sweet. But well, for some of them. At least I wasnt. The only happiest moment I can think of is at Chinese Orchestra. I have always deemed CO pratice as hell. But now, everything changes, from the roots to the stem. I laugh and joke there. ar blah blah blah, and my mouth keeps on shooting like an bullet. Becuase someone will be answering me back as if my conversation were interesting.



Okie, perhaps it's because my mouth's kinda out of function at class. Well, I admit, t's my fault. Afterall, I've better not speak up. Kinda cold. I should speak up, shouldnt I? But no, I dont, I dont dare to look around and see the confused face, and without answer. Let them talk, and let me listen and learn. Learn at how they speak, and remember to apply it for future use. I know, I'm on the verge of giving up. But yet, I cant. Everthing's so steady now, I cant find anunsused log and get inside there. It's impossible. And that's fat dream.



When have I change? When has this mouth of mine going around cracking cold jokes yet laughing over at it gone rusted? When has this mouth of me turned into an radio that goes "orhx.". Okie, one or two, I can at least savlage an conversation.



Almong all the closest teacher I ad told me that I had little confidence, the only closest one I didnt heard frm is Mrs Oo. Of course, I'm kinda confidence at myself when n Primary, deemed almost everything's right. Mr Koh sae that in Sec 1 and Mr Xie sae in Sec 3 followed by Mr See last year. They reminded me, I need to improve on my confidence. And I told myself, history's repeating. wahaha.