Dinner with my secondary school classmates

Had a great night tonight with my secondary school friends! :) it's been so long since we last met up. Sigh, I want to go kayaking!!!

Anyway, we are supposed to go kayaking today but I had meeting in office so in the end I've canceled the kayaking event. :/ :/ then, I decided to pull forward the Thursday date with PeiYu to tonight, and Yuling had something to pass to me too, so I've asked her along. On the day itself, See Theng and Pui Ying came along too which I didn't expect at all but it's a pleasant surprise! :D

So we met in IMM (thanks god they reached already because I had no phone with me) and went for dinner at this Japanese resturant which I had no idea what the name is. whatever the name is, I doubt I will dine in there again because it's so hard to decide on a dish. sigh, I guess I will just stick to my regular dinner with rice and meat.

I had so much difficulties trying to finish the food initially because of my heavy lunch (so heavy I forgo waffles and Koi drink in the afternoon) but I managed to finish it eventually! :D :D

It was a great dinner with them, reminising those old secondary school days when I was still a really selfish young lady who tucked in her clothes way in such that I'm the only one exempted when the teacher wants us to raise our hand to check if we tugged in our clothes. Ah, and the prom night when I acutally forgotten my own classmate is actually the prom queen, because all I can remember for the prom night is Ellin was as pale as a sheet of paper and Catherine had a really thick make up. But I guess the most memorable one would be the 9 of us, sitting down together in the canteen, pouring our hearts out, and for Pui Ying and I, we pour way a lot more tears too. 
ps: I found the date! It's 12.07.07! I auctally wrote it down in my diary! hahahahpsps: I wrote "oh man, can I damn Peiyu? Haha, I wanted to continue but she got tuition so the meeting was dispelled."pspsps: I started the entry with "Kept crying today, haa, but its somehow sweet" and end with "Owch! My eyes hurt so much, damn. I drop too much tears"   I also almost forgotten that I "specialise" in palm reading if Pui Ying didn't remind me tonight. I already forgotten how passionate I was for palm reading in secondary school. Maybe because the future right now is not as vague as it seems like in secondary school, when all I need is just a vague answer like "oh, I'm going to be successful in my life".  The future I see when I was in Secondary school was just "getting into the course I want, get a good job" but not now anymore, I don't even have the minimum criteria to even dream about getting into the university which I wanted. Palm reading wouldn't give me the answer I wanted like what it could have given me back then. I don't even have the courage to ask how my career will be in the future because it seems all so bland. My future lies so many possibilities and I have no idea which one I should take.  Studying or working? I can't decide, I really can't.  If I pick studying, where should I study? What should I study? I have worked hard for my beginning of my studying year only to give it all up when it is ending. I might not be the A grade student throughout my studying life, but at least I managed to get into a good secondary school, and eventually enough grades to get into a good course in a good polytechnic, and then I got lazy and now my ideal university is such a far away dream from me.  What's ironic is I've been saying something like that even before the start of Year 3, and then in the end I still play through the whole of Year 3. I really need to get someone to brainwash me!! Sigh, I can get into a overseas university (which I really would like to!) or a private university, but then, argh, I don't know what course I should choose.
Working, I don't know, it just seems like an alternative suggestion to me. I have yet to explore this suggestion yet. I laughed once when my mother told me about her friend who had a daughter who keeps studying because she is afraid of working, and right now, that's what I feel, I'm really afraid of working right now. I guess it's because the attachment job I have right now is not within my field of interest and I'm afraid my future working life is going to be something similar to what I'm facing now. I have no passion for this job at all, I had this assumption all along that it's because I've yet to adjust to the environment, but maybe it's not this case.  Every morning, I will be dragging myself to work in fear that I will have a lot of meetings, a lot of new unknown terms I have to come terms with and facing questions by my superior which I don't even understand in the first place. I know I should do some homework but I don't even know where to start from. Attachment is like electronics, I have no passion, and I try to push it far from me.  Sometimes I wonder what if it's programming I'm working on like my classmate Hong Chuan instead of HR Meetings. I have faith in myself that I will do it well because whatever that I have passion in, I will put in 101% effort to do it well, like, DNT, programming modules, Maths and earning money.  Like, I put in 101% to finish my DNT chassis within the time frame I set for myself.  ps: I used chassis because during my project days just last semester, I used the word "artifact" to describe my workpiece for our project and I was mocked by Cedric like crazy because "artifact are supposed to be in museums". And to prove him wrong, I even Google the word only to realize he is correct.  I might not listen/attend the programming lessons in Year 1 and 2 but I will make sure I've finish up all the tutorials and even to the extend of re-doing again aand again. Same applies to Mathematics. 
For the earning money, I don't think I need to say any much more.. sigh, but after spending a fortune on my 24-70mm lens, I'm feeling a little dejected at the money I'm left with and I have no motivation to earn money. That's the worst, because when I have no motivation to earn money, I keep spending them. 
Okay, I know, I'm a bit out of line with the subject I should be blogging about, but, I feel good to blog all that I'm thinking of. It's been so long since I last blogged so much in an entry, actually, it's been so long since i can afford 2 hours just to blog whatever I'm thinking of.