thought

Thoughts gushing thru the river of thoughts at the moments. I'm confused right now over so many thought to thought thoughts.

Well, firstly I was dumbfounded by my friend's question, "How do u define mature and childish". I was caught surprised, but managed to gave a answer which after a while, doesn't seems right to me. So i gave it a long thought whilst walking home. 

What is mature? Really.. i have no idea. even still now. I wouldn't say I'm not childish but I wouldn't say I'm mature. It's so hard to define this term.

I think it's childish to speak behind's one back.. then again, how do you define "speaking behind's one back"? Speaking bad of your friend? How about discussing about your friend with another friend who knows that friend too? Is that considered "speaking behind's one back"?

Sometimes when I hear my friends discuss about other friends, I wondered, "is that considered bad mouthing?" Which is part of the reason why I tend to be wary of people who discuss about other friends.. unless I'm absolutely certain that the discussion is harmless... which is another definition omg. definition definition everywhere~ 

Next, so am i mature if i know the path I'm going to take? But I met so many people who seem almost certain of their path only to change it at last minute.. is that still considered mature? I've got a friend who planned to work for 1 year .. oh wait, i think i can define the term now!

Mature, is a thought, a decision that people agrees with and will support you with it.

Is it considered okay? well, it sounds okay to me though! haha 

so.. I was procrastinating (coursework ruins life, -kidding-) and saw this post whereby the shelter manager wrote a letter urging people not to breed puppies nor send your dog to the shelter. I was close to tears and full of emotions after reading it. Which is why, I'm here blogging why I had a dog when I was 22. And it's not like I love dogs all along or something. I have friends asking me why the sudden urge, and my list for adopting gets pretty lengthy and boring (ah well) so basically, I do not get to finish my reasons and the topic has already changed to how cute pika is lololol, and all the stupid things she did but it's okay, I'm stupid, so we are fine. xD but anyways, I would like to list all the reasons to finally get a dog and many more thoughts that ran throught my minds after pika came into this family.

I still remember the day when I was working in the video shop, a lady came to find Alex, my colleague and ask if she wants a puppy which might be put to sleep if no one would take the puppy home. So Alex, who can't foster or adopt it because of her two aggressive dogs, push it to me in an attempt to shake the lady off, asking me to take care of it, and I stupidly got trapped in it without thinking much. (I realized it was a grave mistake only after I settled down that day -.- FUCK was the word of that day, ah, but well well. xD) 

Anyway, so I heard the story from the lady once more and called my parents immediately informing them of the situation and my parents agreed. So Alex started to tell me how easy it is to take care of a dog, she is damn good with words so I'm not surprised she make everything sounds really easy, and am not surprised I will be brought over by her. Intelligent level too different already, obviously I'm at the low end. -.- 

But anyway meanwhile, the lady constantly delay my meeting with the dog, and I was really preparing myself for the dogs. So after a few months without news, I was already overwhelmed with the idea of having a dog at home. During that few months, I constantly ask myself if I'm ready to save a life. And I realise yes, I'm ready, my family is ready too. Things has stabilized for my family. My sister and I are no longer kids they have to worry about, basically, we are their biggest worries. Haha. Financial wise, I'm sure I can cope with that, so that isn't a problem too. Time wise, university life has been relaxing so far so time is not an issue too. money, time, environment, everything is a pass go!

So as times goes by and I have yet to see the dog, I kind of give up on depending on the lady and besides I would prefer a pure breed xD (do not judge me, i have a hard time cos I'm constantly judging myself over this.) Since I'm looking at adoption, I knew puppies are out of my range because no one will give up puppies for adoption, besides.. I'm glad i didn't adopt puppies because I'm sure I can't handle their constant peeing, whining, crying, teething period and I'm afraid I don't have the ability to train them properly. 

I almost adopt a miniature pinscher but I didn't because my parents talked sense into me. It is a old tortured dog with a lot of health issue. My mother urge me not to take it because I'm not well-to-do (i still got a study loan from my aunt) and she knew that it's gonna be way too hard on me because of the frequent trips to the clinic and the dog wouldn't be close to us because it is way too scare of people already. 

So I carry on with my search and was close to adopting a cairn terrier of 3 year old and has to be given up because the owner's daughter is allergic to dog fur. My parents thinks it's okay but if possible don't dopt because they are not yet prepared to have a dog in our family. Well, anyway, I was susposed to pick up the cairn terrier after I returned from Genting. When I returned from Genting, the owner told me her father decided to keep the dog. I was so disappointed but i think this is better. Looking back right now, it's as if destiny has path set for me already.

The next one was Pika, the lucky dog destined to be a part of my family. I was surfing adpost and came across this Japanese spitz which is 9 months old, female, and hs a adoption fee of $500. I admit I wanted a dog so badly by this point of time already, that I'm willing to accept adoption fee as long as it's reasonable. 

So I googled about Japanese spitz, and it is way too cute! Next is it's character and then the ailments it is prone to. Both seems good. Next is my parents, I show it to my parents and my mum just went SO CUTE. lol. Well, anything with long fur, my parents will like them. haha. So I sms the number and asked about the adoption fee. to my pleasant surprise, adoption fee is free as long as it's the right owner.

I told my parents and they backed out last minute but they did say if I really bring it back, they can't do anything either. And I told Ellin, Yuling about it and we decided to pick Pika up on Saturday with See Theng too.

Before the day I'm susposed to pick Pika up, I didn't get my hopes up, instead I'm ready to face the fact that it might fail halfway, because it sounds too good to be true! But yeap, things went well. :) and Pika was really overwhelming to people! 

I remember when I first saw Pika. I was somehow disappointed because her fur looks so thin, as in I an see her back turning bald, and her tail's end was bitten by herself until there's blood. :( I was expecting a japanese spitz I've seen in google images. But I took her anyway, determined to make her look something like those in google images. xD besides, if I don't take her.. it's possible SPCA will be where she is heading to soon. :(

So the owner's husband knew that I'm going to take Pika and went home to take her documents and belongings, while leaving Pika with me. Pika drag me everywhere with her leash! And even poop on the grass when I have nothing with me to clean it up -.- And she is friendly, very very friendly. She shower her licks all over us, lick our legs and hands when she saw us. No sign of aggression at all. 

After the husband gave me the documents and everything, Ellin drove us to Pasir Ris farmway to get all her necesserities like play pen, brush. I didn't want to buy the toys for pika from there because I'm sure I can get a toy from any toy shop near my house but Yuling and See Theng insist on buying a ball for Pika as a gift. They were worried I wouldn't give anything to Pika to play. xD

After buying the food and others, Ellin drove us to Choa Chu Kang to visit the vet for a checkup. She prescribe medicines susposedly good for Pika's skin (but uhm i see no use) but Pika continues to bite her tails, which is quite heart pain to see her doing so.

Next destination would be to my home where Ellin drop us down while she drove home for something else. Well, things are pretty much a blur to me at home because it all past too fast. I just remember I didn't do anything well. bathing pika also cannot, fierce to her also not fierce. -.- stressed ah stressed. I do remember my mum said pika is not to be allowed out of the playpen as long as she is at home. (but now... hmmm hahaha)

Before soon, Ellin came to my house after she finished her stuff, and brought Brise with her. Not a good idea. Pika was too interested in Brise but Brise is scared of her. I find it funny at that time, but looking back now.. I pity Brise. ><

After Ellin, Yuling and SeeTheng went home and it's time to sleep, Pika barked in her playpen. She barked the whole night through, much to my frustration because I was already drained from handling her the whole day. I had thoughts like CAN I TAKE THIS EVERY NIGHT. MAYBE I'M NOT PREPARED FOR IT. many thoughts, many many thoughts. eh. negative thoughts. aigo.

Ah so that's about her with regards to Pika's first day with me. :)

oh wow, i just spend hours doing this essay which is unrelated to coursework. swee. and I only managed to from pre-Pika era to first day of Pika-era. even more swee!

Angst, the type of angst where it makes no sense, and hence, hello blogging. It make no sense, because i am not involved in it, i am a outsider, but it is enough to ruin my day.

Conceitedness. A level higher above confidence. to be discovered only after months of acquaintances after the constant tainting of my favorite social media hangout. It seems that conceitedness always come with a gifted tongue.

Seems to me some misunderstandings happen, and now it erupts into a child war by vocabulary-rich yet senseless kids. seriously. I am lame, but that? it's lamer. sounds cheesy, but i believe to be acquaintances out of the many possible combinations we are open to, is worth cherishing it, not to mention there's a possibility of friendship. lol, that sounds funny, but heck! Well, my point being, why not just forgive. :( Why develop it into a word war. :( Whine whine why.

And i think I complain a lot more recently. Ah, probable due to the greediness instilled in me. the yearning of more, so many unnecessary wants unfulfilled, source of my complains. Have been going "I want to this and that" a lot more than in the past too. :( i want to feel content, just like the contentment i had back when I was in SGH.

life's great, i should stop complaining, but i am feeling no kick. :(

amused at how first and second world is differentiated., and that there is fourth class. 

amused at how people jump at new technologies, technology is changing, and i am getting tired of switching from one social network to another. facebook, twitter, google plus (which glad-fully i didn't use at all) and recently path. 

amused at how social networking has played a part at outcasting. 

maybe i should try going offline for a 24 hours one day. everything is virtual and I'm tired of it.

22 May 2011 - Updated Day 6 and Day 7 together! ^^

anyway, here's the link for the TW trip
Day 1
Day 2
Day 3
Day 4
Day 5 
Day 6 
Day 7

birthdays birthdays more birthdays. 

lazy to make cards now. :/

thinking if i should buy or make a card next week. 

picky friend leh. hehe. 

maybe i should buy? hmmm. 

Let me worry about the gifts first.

i miss my two colleagues really badly. I miss Sujun whacking me whenever she get excited talking about her ec, I miss Siew Ee offering insight to the way people act. I miss both of them a lot. So much whenever I pass by their cubicle I will look inside only to see empty desk and chairs, and get myself disappointed even though I expected it.

I miss taking bus to Connection 1 and eating the bah chor mee with them and buying Gongcha. 

August would have been perfect without their departure. 

Like seriously perfect. damn. 

Now I have to survive on my self entertainment, which eh, apparently is serving me well so far. -.-

thanks god for my childish-ness?

I don't know whether to laugh or cry LOL.

July!

urghh it's end of july already. ): had to bid farewell to one of my friend at work soon. but it's okay, we should meet up soon again!! :) and next week i will have to bid farewell to another friend at work, sigh, and then 1 month later, I will be bidding farewell to my workplace and probably start school. Used "probably" because I have yet to be confirm (but i believe the chances are pretty high).

Well, I would say July is a spontaneous month. Having last minute meet up, cancellation at last minute, change of plan (so often i lost count) so on and so forth. Went for various gatherings which makes me happy, makes me moody, but what's left to stay now is happy mood. :D probably got to thank luck for finding this job at SGH. 

There's this day when I was very disappointed and I felt moody even the next day, and my disappointment ended when I had lunch with my friends in SGH. Nope, i didn't talked about it, but it just ended. just like this. sometimes I'm fascinated by how my mind works. :) 

Hmm wait, there's actually 2, but the another one is my fault for misinterpreting the sms. I re-read again and realised I totally got the meaning wrong, and I hurried to clarify and clear everything up.

Well, but overall, this month has been a pleasant month. I have to thank my current workplace because the environment makes me a happy person. The previous few months before I started working in SGH was the darkest moment in my life, lifeless and sad person the environment molded me into. I can feel the depression in me even when I was with friends, and I lived everyday (including weekends) thinking "damn, i have to start work soon). that sucks, and that accompany me all the way until weekday comes and I have to work.

But now, no matter where I'm, I'm happy. :D well, not always happy but generally joyful. it's a feeling i hope it wouldn't disappear soon. 

Well, i'm starting to limit myself to 2 days out per week starting from the last week of July. i need balance. and I need a new notebook because my current notebook is going to be finish up soon. 

next month is probably the month to go with the flow, as according to my friend who i have to bid farewell to on Monday. ): and i hope that flow has better be a smooth one, like really really smooth.

okay shit, i miss blogging. i miss typing all the thoughts I had and then backspace backspace as and when I like. but nope, I'm lazy to maintain both a blog and a hand written diary. so, once in a moonlight i will be back. okay, probably once in a month. hahahaha, see, i love typing random thoughts like this.

June

June has been an expensive and fruitful month. I felt like I gone through so much during this month, I broke and mend a friendship, I met new people and people who I had not met for so long and I must say all this events made my June a memorable one. 

The new people I've met makes me think that fate is crucial. I met someone who I've known for 2 years and did chat at times but it wasn't until that day when I believe fate is crucial. It felt like.. everything that happened that day just fall nicely. 

And I met someone who resembles another person so much I still find it hard to believe I had the opportunity to meet someone so identical. Really. I realised I have never felt this different for so many years, 4.5 years I think? 

And right now, in my workplace, I met another two people whose characters are refreshing, for example, they love pigeon watching. And they make my life a good one, and we connect in a way such that I feel like I could tell them everything, and we just known one another! :)))) And to have someone to discuss observations with me feels good. :)

I'm still penning down all my activities in pen and I'm enjoying it still. At least I have my Facebook to look through my random thoughts at times and my Itouch to look through all the photos I took. :)

I'm enjoying being a little secretive. :D 

work is pretty good, like my colleagues uses Face-book and they chat during office hours. so yup, I'm on Face-book for 80% of the time but chatting with my colleagues, maybe not. ): cos there's no one to talk to? tee hee, but it's okay la, I'm fine with it, since it's just a temporary 3 months job. :)


I think I might not be updating this space as often because I'm moving back to hand written journal/diary. :)


speaking of which, I need a apple product so badly. touch/phone/pad, I just need one of them desperately. not to mention, this past year without my itouch is miserable.

argh, can't upload my day 6 and 7 into photo-bucket. i need to blog about them because I have forgotten quite a part of the days there. ):

YAY!

friendship. friends comes and go. y years of memories. ouch ouch ouch ouch oops shit. 

 

make my weekend a guilty and worried one. 

but phew, everything's good. :D

i feel good now, like I've just discover another hidden gem or something, well, it is la, friendship of y years does not come by easy.

and and and and I just got a job! YAY!!! I'm getting worried as the days pass by without any good news yet (and it's only 1 week?) and I went for this interview and I was immediately confirmed.

oh, and, I auctally printed my o lvls transcript on my NP transcript this morning, like 2am in the morning? i was still wondering why is that paper particularly thick and why is the print like this (NP results together with O lvl results on a same page) then i saw the NP chop and i was like... OMG SHIT.

so I had to run down to NP today. grrr, tiring day. went to SGH Outram Park, then to Raffles Place, then to NP, leave NP and return to NP, reached home, then to JP to meet friend, then finally home again.

cos I'm starting work tmr, no more butter factory tonight for me. ): ): ): i have never been to butter factory ever and I wanna try flaming drink again! i'm determined to overcome flaming lor!!

finally finally, my past week has been miserable because I'm not generating any income at all. finally those miserable days are over! or maybe not, but at least I can stop worrying about $$$. shit, it's like i've just confirmed i'm a slave to money. ): i don't want leh. 

but okay la, heng-fully, Yuling inspired me by making a card for me on graduation day and I've finally decided that I should be much more generous ( in terms of $$) to my friends than before :D i still can't forget how surprised and touched I'm when I received her card and flowers from them. it's like the flowers don't come cheap, and they just spent it on me?!

speaking of which, the flowers are withering already...... ): ): ): ):

Misconceptions

random but LOLLLLL, i was suprised that Kopitiam in Causeway Point actually sells MMB? but hmmm, not as good as JiDeChi nor the one in Taiwan. but for the price.. hmmmm. :p  after that, we travel to a field with a hump near Causeway Point which all along, i thought is going to be a hill and I thought I really had to climb (which is cool!) but nahhh, after I reached, i realized it's a field with a hump. and then haha, all I wanted was to fly kite there.
anyway soon after some photos, it starts to rain and damn, it was so humid grrr hard to stand. ): heng my junior brought his umbrella, if not ... gg. so we went back to Causeway Point and decided to go for dinner, and we kinda randomly picked NEX.
well, then at NEX i said "stupid things", as defined by my junior, which origins from a misconception, and i went rounds around the misconception which led to even more misconceptions and confusion, and things almost got out of hand. but okay, things are cleared up now. phew. and I didn't realize i actually know my junior close to 6 years already.  whatever, I feel like I'm 19 still. :D

CMMMMMM! :D

met up with Siti first and we have breakfast together, and it was enjoyable! clear up some of my doubts with her which leaves me in peace (hehehe!). :D then met up with Saties who wanted to dine in Vari-Nice kopitiam, hahaha, and then finally Sasi! 
so we talked in Starbucks and then Siti had to leave. ): so Sasi, Saties and I went to walked around in CM and then finally settled for Baskin Robbins ice cream, and we talked on rather personal stuff, which hehe, tempted Sasi to postpone her stuff and well, she did postpone her stuff. :D

RSAF!!

went to the RSAF open house today with Sasi and Siti and then to Changi Airport where we enjoyed our time so much having lovely chit chat session. <3 <3 really <3, spoke about so many school related relations and thoughts about our classmates. sigh, make me miss class only. ): 
it's a tad sad though, that Sasi has to reach home at 6pm, so we have to leave early..reluctantly. ):

Fri Day: Graduations!

Was late again for Ellin and Jermain's ceremony. cos I woke up pretty early and I assume there is going to be enough time hence I dilly dally and ultimately, late again, by 15 minutes. well, i really have to work on this before I start school. it's a habit so hard to kick!

Photos taken from the ceremony. :)

Jermain. :)

  

Ellin. :)

after the ceremony ended, it's photo session! :D

Ellin with Jermain, who graduated together in the same session. :D

us all together. ^^

then Ellin and Jermain went on to take photos with their classmates, so we tag along. :D

me and Ellin, took this only after the graduation because eh, Yuling and Venice took the photo way before I reached in the morning. well, lateness does led to good thing. :p we got to pose with flowers! hahaha. lameeeee. :p

Ellin with her classmate! and then See Theng reached and took a photo with both Ellin and Jermain. :)

then me and Jermain. :)

so Ellin went to change into shorts while Jermain went to take class photo, and Venice went home. And then See Theng was standing right in front of a very big fan and I asked her to pose for me. :p

so after that, we accompany Ellin to submit her form for the graduation photos. and heng-fully, the company were the same for NP too, so I actually submit my form for graduation photo in SP. cool! :D

then we went for lunch! i remained silent throughout the lunch because I said something really offensive. sigh, i feel very bad even till now. ): But I don't have the courage to apologize. ): ):

well, anyway, we had lunch at this restaurant in Sunset way, and it was expensive, but considering the fact that it makes us really full, i think it's worth it. $25 for buffet-type of fullness, well, worth it!

the food we had. :)

the chicken chop Ellin, See Theng and Ellin had. I shared half with See Theng. taste good! :D

the fish I had and shared with See Theng. it's the first time I chose fish over chicken. and no regrets. ^^

See Theng's desert. yummy! :)

my mudpie, it made me so... sick. 

Ellin's one! didn't try this because I was struggling with my own mudpie. that was really.. scary. ):

then after that we parted way, I'm still regretting for not apologizing to Ellin. ): maybe I don't wanna bring it anymore again, like okay.. let's forget about it by not mentioning it? alright, excuses. I'm just afraid to own up. :/

So I went to SIM to submit my application and grrr, i queued up for 30 minutes, only to discover my transcript is not enough, i need my NP dipolma certificate. ): so.. i didn't complete the application. ):

and then Lee Woon was on her way from SP in a cab, so I hopped on the taxi she is in from SIM bus stop and head to NP for Shiyun's and JiaHui's photo session.

It's a pity I didn't take a photo with this standboard on Wednesday. ): ): so we took a few shots and I went to meet Jia Hui. it's been ages since I last seen her, the last time was last Oct! saw her parents there too, and her mummy recognized me. cos we sort of grow up together, like we know each other since we were 9, and we were rather close because of the "don't friend/friend" shit which is damn stupid. 

We attended the same student care center and primary school, and we were like sisters in student care in the morning, but afternoon when i reached Shuqun, she just started to shun away from me.  Despite the friend/don't friend, we shared a lot of secrets together, maybe that's why i wasn't really bothered by the friend/don't friend thingy.

me and Ping Siew, I know her through Jia Hui, because she was a really close friend of Jia Hui. I didn't really interact with her but I know she is very nice to talk to. I remembered there was once I saw her, and we walked from atrium to blk __ (which i couldn't remember), and the whole journey was great! like argh, there's so many to talk about!

photo I helped Jia Hui to take of with her classmates. it's a pity I didn't take a photo with both Jia Hui and Shi Yun, because by the time I called Shiyun, she already returned her robe. -.- damn fast. ):

Fri Night: ZOUKOUT

//hehehe, decided to re-structure this post again. :D cos the flow wasn't very right the last time I post. :P




after Shiyun's graduation, we went to hang out together with her cousin and her cousin's friends at Block 73 because it's only 5pm! then we went to ourspace to play games before heading off to Far East for dinner, and all i had is tom yum because I'm still full and sick, the chocolate mudpie i had earlier on was really... then then then initially Lee Woon, Shi Yun and I planned to go Clark Quay but we decided to visit Zouk with her cousin and her cousin's friend instead. hehe, so yup, Zouk we come! drank Lemon Bomb first which was pretty much.. okay, fine, nothing much. us trying out Lemon Bomb.. which is free as we had two free housepour that comes with the admission ticket.. which costs $25. but worth it la. :) since it's Lee Woon's first time there. ^^





our eyes looked bright, as in, like awaken bright! okay, wait.. Shi Yun's eye stayed that way for the whole night, mine got dimmer and smaller after I drank Flaming while Lee Woon's one got smaller and she actually shut her eyes when we were dancing? LOL LOL LOL.


us with Shiyun's cousin and cousin's friends, and we were given a table because one of her cousin's friend's dad is a VIP there. well, apparently CitiBank member can have free entry too. :D but well, my parents doesn't own any CitiBank card. anyway, even if they does, i have no idea how am i supposed to tell them I wanna use the card to club. -.-  oh ya!!! soon after we finished the lemon bomb, Lee Woon, Shi Yun and I decided to try flaming (just googled, it's auctally called Flaming Lamborghini).  I was rather afraid actually (and excited!) because I'm damn scare I will get drunk and then i don't know what I will do (if all i did was to giggle giggle I'm absolutely fine with it, I'm afraid I will do even more extreme things like saying things I shouldn't be saying, or worst still, pouring all my sorrows out) and ShiYun warn me beforehand this drink is not to be under-estimated. Flaming Lamborghini: an alcoholic cocktail drink. A mixture of Kahlua, Amaretto, Vodka, Yellow Chartreuse, Blue Curacao and Milk. To be lited up and drank at one go.



Litting up the drink
   taken with & without flash. nice in the dark right?



the milk was poured into the drink to extinguish the fire. so i drink it and store most of the liquor in my mouth because Shiyun mentioned that she drank too fast the previous time that she got dizzy, so i was afraid and I chose to sallow it slowly. but my throat felt hot after consumption.

me with 90% liquor inside my mouth. Woah, both Lee Woon and Shi Yun were awesome, they auctally finished it fast and they had another one, which is known as Super Flaming.  I was already feeling pretty tipsy by then, and energy-less and i have a urge to lean on people, like totally depend on a person, and I totally lean on Lee Woon and Shi Yun a lot of times.

 Super flaming, which all of them drank except me!

 us after drinking. Both Shi Yun and Lee Woon felt tipsy after this, and this is a photo of us feeling tipsy.

 I remembered I was trying my best to stay focus, and the background music is driving me nuts!















above photos taken when we were all pretty tipsy. i can't believe i looked so obviously tipsy. -.- and then Shiyun suggested going to the toilet, so the three of us went to the toilet and I rested there while they finish their business (LOL!), felt really awful, really really awful, like having the urge to throw up but I couldn't. then we got back and Shiyun suggested going down to the dance floor to dance. I was like oh my god.. i don't feel good at all. so we tried to dance and after a while I gave up, i couldn't take it at all.  so we went to the toilet again and i just threw up. :/ i was so ashamed of myself, I felt like I'm creating trouble for the cleaner, like can't drink still act like can drink. :/ :/ i kept apologizing to the cleaner because i felt really bad about it. and I had to throw away my Motorola handphone strap because eh, it was infested with my vomit stuff too. ): ): ): at least I can wash the comb but my Motorola handphone strap... ): ): heng I got another different Motorola handphone strap!!!! i have to treasure that one! then we went out of Zouk because Katrice (friend of Shiyun's cousin) is heading home. and i felt better outside, without the music and everything. Soon, we came in again, and we decided to head to phuture and dance! and as we have free drinks coupon, we decided to use it to exchange for some drinks, which I didn't drink because I don't think i can take it.


okay la, i look quite gg but auctally i was already pretty okay already. as in I think i can walk straight if I want to?











so, we danced all the way till 4am. it was good, though Shiyun said i looked like i'm jogging. -.- ahhahhaa, and wooosh, i think I wouldn't enjoyed so much if not for Shiyun, who really is super high! she danced like so nice and I had the urge to dance like her too. :) 
And I saw WJ there! I know he clubs but I didn't expect to chance into him that night. I remembered I was squeezing through the crowd with Lee Woon and Shi Yun behind me and I saw his side view, the first thought I had was "he looks like WJ, is he WJ?" then he turned around and my mind went screaming"OMG, IT'S HIM!!" and then I keep staring at him, well, he noticed that too because he stared at me back which is more like "who is this girl who keeps staring at me like..." ha ha ha, expected. I didn't expect him to remember me like I remember him.
then throughout the whole night, all i had in mind was "I have to take photo with him if i see him again". and the fact is i never get to see him that night again. maybe I was just saying, maybe if I really see him again, I wouldn't do that, or would I?  good, at least this question is better than me repeatedly thinking about the mistake I've made in the afternoon during lunch (with Ellin, Yuling and Seetheng).