Saturday, June 30, 2007

Friday;'s an day. I question myself- does it all sems too delierate? r was it I who think too much? Or just painly the acting was lousy? Oh man. Grant thy wishes n forget about mine. Oh well, I cant afford another.

wahaha. Okie. Yesterday was sumting like that. And that is what was struck in my mind that whole day yesterday. And aye. i received phone call from my mum. Wow. 3 days already. I'm glad she is able to received sms from mi. I should she wouldnt be able to. China cant receive at all! Arrghh. Guess she call because she notice an miss call which I caled because I was so bored and wanted to test the respond. Afterall, who would have thought my mum to be able to received the smses. And ya.. she hung up after 1 minute. jUst nice.

Arr.. today's Saturday. I let the cat out of my bag. My friend should have suspected what she shouldnt. And dam my mouth yesterday and dam my eyes today- they all hinted that single thing, when it wasnt.

Oh yea. Today's flag day. Went to Outram Park to do charity. Oh man, I save them, but who can save me? I'm eually broke too. And I got an promising future, why not save me first?? Haha, lolx. Please do not take offence, okie?

Reach school in that dam hairstyle which honestly. I shold have re-type if not for the shortage of time! Arr. And I regret so much man.

Went to Outram Park to collect funds but drift to Chinatown's Pearl Centre with Pei Yu before having our lunch. n not to forget the soya ice-cream.

Meet back with gang to return to school. And had sch an horrible fun playing hide and seek in the MRT satation which I thought I was susposed to be familiar with! And ya.. at least I recognise the road to take the train, and came up in time to meet them in the train. Else. It's alright. I can afford the time to go somewhere else.

And I cancelled my tution today becuase I dont have enough time already. Yawns. And I'm already as tired as can be already. wahaha.

Received this prank call from Zhiti at night when I was watching Condor Heores 98. haha.And I wondered who that was. luckily I guess it out right eventually! phew. i passed! haha.

Friday, June 29, 2007

-Memories part II-



And then, primary school was normal, just like an typical kids. Going to school. Getting back from school. Blah blah blah. I thought Primary school were sweet.At least Lee Woon will laugh at my cold jokes. I know, it's easy geting high with her. I tease her, call her name, but yet she still praised me, never called me names, and never tease me. Maybe she did, but somehow, it dont hurts me. haha. Staying back everyday at school to play badminton. She accompany me. But sehe's too good. And I'm too baddddd..!!



Den came Secondary life, from my present situation, I struggling. Struggling not to drop down, struggling up to everything. Sturggle struggle struggle. Struggling to get an balance, struggling to hold on my belief, struggling not to leave like they are. But the only change that doesnt change is that everything changes. Break the sentence up and you will get the meaning.



I thought the last year should be sweet. But well, for some of them. At least I wasnt. The only happiest moment I can think of is at Chinese Orchestra. I have always deemed CO pratice as hell. But now, everything changes, from the roots to the stem. I laugh and joke there. ar blah blah blah, and my mouth keeps on shooting like an bullet. Becuase someone will be answering me back as if my conversation were interesting.



Okie, perhaps it's because my mouth's kinda out of function at class. Well, I admit, t's my fault. Afterall, I've better not speak up. Kinda cold. I should speak up, shouldnt I? But no, I dont, I dont dare to look around and see the confused face, and without answer. Let them talk, and let me listen and learn. Learn at how they speak, and remember to apply it for future use. I know, I'm on the verge of giving up. But yet, I cant. Everthing's so steady now, I cant find anunsused log and get inside there. It's impossible. And that's fat dream.



When have I change? When has this mouth of mine going around cracking cold jokes yet laughing over at it gone rusted? When has this mouth of me turned into an radio that goes "orhx.". Okie, one or two, I can at least savlage an conversation.



Almong all the closest teacher I ad told me that I had little confidence, the only closest one I didnt heard frm is Mrs Oo. Of course, I'm kinda confidence at myself when n Primary, deemed almost everything's right. Mr Koh sae that in Sec 1 and Mr Xie sae in Sec 3 followed by Mr See last year. They reminded me, I need to improve on my confidence. And I told myself, history's repeating. wahaha.
It's been 14 days already. And now's midnight. And tmr's school day. Ya.. I must be crazy.Well, I dont know. I only know that I will turn nuts if I dont blog in tday.

I sinned, from my mouth, yet again. And I thought I was punished. Well, at least it keeps me moody even to home.

I'm stress yet, after Mr Koh's one sentence," you look just like last year". I certainly dont wish history to repeat itself. Why do only bad things repeat but not good things? Good history? Why must they be kept only in the deepest part of our memories? Dont tell me, so that we will treasure it. No, that's not treasuring, that's torturing. I remember reading an book,

the memories are like something so close yet so far, it seems to be only yesterday but auctally it's not. You seems to be inside it, but auctally you have already left it. The heart aches painfully and the tears are just waititng to run down.

It seems only yesterday my dad bring us to Pasir Ris to play the seaside. And ya, he;s just there, pushing me , who is sitting on an slide to one end to another and my mum and sis taking picture of us. But then, that's auctally 11 years ago at least.

Aye, it seems only yesterday, my cousin and I were racing one another by the road down our's aunt's house. Aye, it seems only yesterday, I ring him up and told him not to friend my sister, and change my mind over and over again. 656555123. this phone number, the first number I remember. haha. My super memory. Ae, it seems only yesterday, my cousins and my sister together with me hiking Bukit Batok Hill again with my aunt and complaining about the darned mosquitoes over there and muttering, never to get up here again. haha. Ya, it seems only yesterday my cousin teached me cycling. But then, when's the yesterday? it's 12 years ago. Even before we started school. Before we started to go down the long journey that awaits us.

And there. In my deepest memories and regret, is my sister. I dont remember a day treating her well. Oh well- If there's a cystal pearl by my side awaiting me to look at it and tell it about my childhood. Perhaps the first one to appear will be her. Yesterday, I just hit her, without an reason, without an warning.

Yesterday. my friend refused to lend me her pencil. I was angry. I got home and vent my anger on her. She came to me to borrow something. I refused. I snapped at her. She went to mum. She went to her, asking her what she should do so that I wun be so angry. My mum told her what she should do, and I saw it, but I refused to lend her. I was happy for that few days. She keep lending me her items but I refused to lend her. I'm selfish. And after 3 days, she refused to lend me anymore. I panic and tried to break the ice. But no, the ice is too thick. Yesterday. That yesterday.

It's again yesterday. When my younger cousin bully her by calling her names. I sit at a side. Wanting to help my sister but I didnt. Okie, I have an little human side, so I pity her but did not help her.

All that yesterday has an history of 10 years. The past has pass, but the regret are yet in my mind, repeating and repeating, neverending.

Okie, and Ernest hit the right spot on jan, that leaves me with tears that keep on flowng flowing flowing. Oh man. And now, my eyes' swollen. Oh man. Memories can kill man.

Thursday, June 14, 2007

Arrr.. ananother day at home doing my own stuff for hours that keeps going. sianx ehx.
tmr's an busy day. haha. got to doll myself up nice. =DD

haha. the net seems practically nothing to stuf, and here I'm, watching " Return of the condor heroes 98" by fann wong and chrispter lee.. haha. it sure brings back memory man. =DD. arr... fann wong voice is lye.. eewkrs. =DD but still I like to watch. =DD

1 more week before starting school, and Mr Koh is still not back.. arr.. guess I got to stay back after school to complete it when school starts. =SS

Wednesday, June 13, 2007

Just went online and found pictures of my clothes. haha. I though I never got to see them on net already. =DD Got to scrimp now after F21 spree.








(Adore this dress so much!! =DD)



Stay at home. Rot. Rot. Rot.
Eat. TV. Comp. Sleep.
- I'm turning into an pig
:: Merci ::

Tuesday, June 12, 2007

Now's time to start with my folio alredy. =DD Draw out the chart.. pray god thatI'm able to complete it within this 2 weeks. =DD

Practically doing nothing at home today. Not required to attend school since my DNT were 90% completed, all that's left now was that miling, and finishing. Got to wait for Mr Koh first thought. haha.

My items has arrived yet again. =DD i lurve the dress! =DD Nut not that yellow top. Adores the pants and the long tee dress too. Baobei. =DD

Just tried on some make up just now. suddenly I have the urge to get out, arr.. to any part of Singapore. =DD Flip thought the neoprints at my sister room. wow! I taken with her so many pics within this few months. We are crazy gals man.=DD

Waiting for her to reach home and get the keroro figurines which she promised to get me.. but i got to pay still. =SS So niao chey. haha.

Monday, June 11, 2007

Satuday was so sickening! =SS. Went to collect my passport.. which is totally a waste of time, I got no mood to travel after I went to colect.. it's like.. arrr.. nowhere is as good as home. haha. and so I went home and watch television. Simple way of passing an Saturday. =DD

Sunday.. arr. Dreamt of fighting against zombie, plastic bags and bathing at school toilets. Haha And actor. Keep on chionging my VCDs yet again. Outdoors are not tempeting at all. it's like tiring..whenever I think of going outdoors. Sigh. I'm an home-stayer, isnt it? =DD And sis got to go on an BBQ trip today and reached home only at 12 plus.. how lucky.. haha.. reminded me of Zara's times.. 3-4 times of experience of reaching home at 2 plus. Ar.. just miss all of em.
Getting together, and hey, the malays dun dare to bully us cuz the Chinese group are powerful.. not trying t be racists but they did really left us out, okk. =DD Watching mid-night shows, chionging for the last trains.. arrr. there are just plainly too much. =DD

Today.. god.. wake up at 10+ before watching VCDs and goin to show. Almost faint man. Dust flying and tiring filing aand using that rasp. And Ellin praised me " Oh.. your face so white.. just went for faical yea?" lols.. yaya. facial, indeed man.

I sinned today.. once again.. i peek at my sis handphone and found out something.. she should accept, isnt it? I hope she does. What is she hesitating about? Family or studies? Or just plainly looks? She couldnt be that bad. I guess must be family or studies, perhaps both. Arrr.. accept lar... have an first try, gain the experience. haha, dun be like me, k? I got an prediction.. she didnt because of my mother, dun want to break her heart, wanted to fulfil her heart.

I was right about my sister all this along. Overcoming, enduring and conquering the hardships, ups and down.. I remember the past.. how people detest her, how people bully her, how she endure my temper and standing against those hatred and fears.. and finally, she stand out. Becoming someone who is popular. Overshining this dwelling elder sister. She's my sister, haha, my noble sister. She make it, after years of hardships. Brave, intelligent, and not taken back by anything. one great one. =DD My sister lei. But sad, this elder sister over here blogging has done nothing over this few years.. arr.. ever since she was born..

Okk, I completed most of DNT. I'm waiting for Mr Koh to come back and indicated me to do the milling of that line and battery holder.. And tana.. completed! This week, okie, this week! And next week.. I can chiong my folio and when school opens.. haha. =DD

Friday, June 08, 2007

Dam man. I was sick again.. stomachache. I slept at 3am ytd and wake up at 8am becuase my stomach has been acheing from dark to light. Den I wake up agan at 11 because of the same problem.

Afterwhich I went to school to do DNT. Haha. Today was quite nice. So few people do DNT, less than 10 ba. If everyday were like tat.. wonderful! Expected to end my project next week and start to chiong my folio le. Cheerios!!

Aye.. nites was boring. I found this, finally! =DD Just completed Sassy Girl Chung Hyang again and was kinda interested in the history. Ultimately different from TV. At least I didnt saw that Cailian-jie in the history ehx. =DD. Arhaha. Menglong.=DD. ^.^

三百年前,朝鮮朝鲜淑宗时代,,妓生月梅與前任使道所生的女兒成春香,是聞名的絕色佳人。

全羅道南原府前院副使的公子李梦龙,随父亲一起住在南原。整日在书房中苦读的李梦龙,心中十分苦闷。  

 一日,李梦龙心血来潮,带着下人去广汉楼游玩。这一天正值民间的端午节,到处是欢声笑语。男人们进行着摔跤比赛,女人们则悠闲地荡着秋千。

李梦龙对其中一位特别美丽的姑娘一见锺情,她那闭月羞花的容貌使其失魂落魄。李梦龙立即派下人去打听那姑娘的下落,侍从悄悄的回报:「那是月梅的女儿春香。」

李梦龙马上催促侍从去向春香表达自己的心意,但是春香只留下一句谜语就走了:
「大雁随渝飞,蝴蝶随花舞,小蟹随贝居」。

李梦龙经过苦苦的思考,终于悟出了其中的隐意,于是趁着夜色去拜见了春香。   

几天前,春香的母亲曾梦见一条青龙在莲花池中,而此时见李梦龙来要和春香结为秦晋之好,认为这简直就是天意,是吉祥的象徵,也就爽快的答应下来。也就在那个晚上,李梦龙和春香两人本能似的相融了,在那一瞬间,两人精神与肉体都好像沉浸在梦境中。可好事多磨,幸福总是短暂的。

李梦龙的父亲由于政绩显赫,被任命为进晋内职,必须立即去韩阳赴任,李梦龙也必须随同前往,一对相爱的人就这样分开了。   

三年後以好色而闻名的南原御使卞學道,听说了春香的绝色后,放着别处的好职位不去却来到了南原。
在他赴任的第三天,就想方设法要把春香占为己有,仗勢要強納為廳,春香嚴詞抗.

虽然春香的母亲已经从良,但是根据当时的法律中「妓女的女儿只能是妓女」的规定,他想尽办法要把春香留在自己的府中,但妓女的登记本上却根本没有春香的名字。

春香宁死不屈,恼羞成怒的御使又给春香加了一些莫须有的罪名, 當堂非刑拷打。春香堅強不屈。被判為死刑。

南原的百姓聽到這個消息,都很為春香不值,所以自發收集匙羹(勺子),以便將來春香死後可以為她建立一座金屬牌坊

而此时,去了韩阳的李梦龙发愤图强,年纪轻轻就作了状元,被委任为钦差大臣, 並得到君主的密令,做了巡按御史。在南原附近,李梦龙听到了民间广为流传的有关与春香崇高的气节和南原暴君的故事后,他乔装打扮混进监狱见到了春香,表示一定要严惩这个暴君。

悲喜交集的春香向李梦龙表白了自己不变的爱。李梦龙隐瞒身份,出席了南原御使的生日宴会。正当气氛正热烈时,李梦龙以钦差大臣的身份出现了,严惩了南原御使。查知卞學道無惡不作,立即把他撤職定罪。在老百姓的歡呼聲中,春香和夢龍重新團聚。大家用各种方式来表达对这对有情人的祝福。

另有一結局則是夢龍在京城與貴族之女結婚,春香含恨自殺。

Sigh. Stay at home tomorrow. Chiong DNT ah- finishing. =DD

Thursday, June 07, 2007

Oh man. This week. Sick. Probably cuz I chiong my DNT too much le. Monday was all about skipping A maths lesson and doing DNT for 3 hours before running home to complete it. haha.

Tuesday was practically DNT.. and vomitting. Guess because I didnt ate much for the whole day and I keep on doing my DNT. Imagine eating only a bread in the morning and than standing and bending my poor backbone for 2 hours. I almost faint at that dam shortie machine. Or is it plainly my mum fault hat I'm so tall? =PP

After all that milling for that 2 hours. My backbone are aching and my legs.. shivering le. Dam man. I thought I just want to lie down and moaned man. But I didnt care about it anyway. i continued to drill that 12 holes like "Ar.. I'm still healthy" and just simply sit on my chair and lying my hands on the table after I completed drilling. I thought I could have gota an sleep just in that way. Oh. I was damny sick at that time already.

I fall to bed after I reached home adn then vomit at 8+. After vomit., I continued to sleep until the next day. Oh. And I went to school, take my things and went home to do. At least home's just a few steps if I am uncomfortable. haha. And my friends were like.. "WAD?!" lolxz.

Aye.. today? Reached school at 12 something and do my work until 4pm. And I went home and continueed to chiong. haha. How filthy I'm today. Had to stay in the loo for abot 15 mins to clean myself up. Oh no.. My hair. Die ehx. The time is up. My hair is domed. Reborning effects are like..sayounara.. as according to Jermain. Hais.

I'm tired. that's all. Slept at 2-3am yesterday. **yawn**

Haha. Do hope next week's a success. I wanna chiong my DNT project finish. *Prays!* And to go to Century for window shopping. i cant buy anything. Ultimately broke. And I own people so much money. "I guess I need you, money"!

Monday, June 04, 2007

Sundays morning is a nightmre. I didnt get enough sleep. And I'm in an foul mood. I wentt o Market with dad and mum to take pic for my passport. And the my mum wanted to go to the market.. which I refused and I went to TS.

Haha. I brought 70 dollar or so at TS for my faviourite show.. ehx.. oldies show. But I wanted to watch. =DD. I was so happy and now's my mum turn to get foul mood. haha.

My uncle came tto my house because he completed repairing my PC. Arigato! =DD And mine is an DVD burner now. CHeerios!

After that I used the PC for the whoe day. glad glad. =DD
Weekends are such an bore. Especially Friday nite. I was so bored that I went to cut my fridges. Cux I dunno what to do. Have ya ever experience before? You are bored and you dun feel like doing useful things? Tats wad I feel that nite.

I went to have an haircut and brought Kit Kat ice-cream since my parents accompany me down. haha. My sis was struggling with PC show. And left me so bored and alone at home.

Thats Friday night. Boreedd!

Okie! Saturday's nice! I went to a number of places that day. Ehx. Went to Bugis with my parents.. once again.. strange. And I didnt shop there since my sis was not there. My mum went to the temple over there and got into an arguement. My mum is so niao and the uncle is an cheater. thanks god I still have my dad. Phew.

Oh, I realised Shiseido is avaible in S'pore. Cuz I heard it is famous but Singapore dun have it, so we can ony got it from Taiwan.. via online, thought. Haha. i never tried before. So expensiveE!

Next we went to PC show. YipeE! I saw my sis again and we went to the Book Fair after she finish her job and I brought 3 Popteens magazine. Aye.. glad glad!!! =DD and keroro bookmark. haha.

And look, it's my name.. lame lame. =DD






Oh, we went to pau pa sen to eat after pc show. The satay are not nice but the curry are like.. wow..!

haha. =DD And I realised DBS main branch is just beside Singapore Conference Hall. i should have gotton there that time during SYF to ask for my receipt thingy. =DD Too late le wor.
Oh yap. Last Friday was Pui Ying's birthday. We planned an birthday party for her under the void deck. Haha. Tiffany, See Theng, Yuling, Catherine was in charge of preparing it, while Ellin, Euncie and I was in charge of delaying time.

We had our history lesson that day so See Theng and Yuling went home to prepare the cake for Pui Ying. After history lesson, Catherine and Tiffany went to help them under the void desk, while Ellin, Eunice and i dilly dally around the school.

We went to Cello Base room first. Ellin went to get her CO fare-well gift from her memer. Damn.. why she got? Argh! They got Cello Base camp and farewell gift. What about me? Nothing.. lolx.. cuz we only got 5 members, should be only 2 left now if there's no newcomers. Pathenic. =DD

Afterwhich I went to drum room with them to get my 60 cent DS tape and my file. I almost wept. My sheng.. Aargh.. it's with me for so many events.. and hey, it's lying there but I cant do anything.. = C Kinda helpless and ar.. sad. And I wondered where is my tape and file.. I cant seem to find it. =XX And yea.. I reckon there's 1 newcomer using my sheng. I dunno. =DD

The time is like oh.. still early. So I went to DNT room to get my items and then realised it is locked. Sighx. Nothing to do over the weekends le. =((

The last place we went to is the toilet. oh. clever idea. I fake stomacache and manage to delay until they are ready.

When we are walking out of school, I told Eunice,

"Oh ya! Today's the 1st of June hor? Yipee! I wanna go your house there see if Cawaii is out or not"

(Eunice give me a blur look) .. okie!

"Hey, you two (Ellin and Pui Ying) wanna follow? Come la, still got so much time, go home nothing to do what"

(and they agreed) *victory*

When we reached the zebra crossing, I saw Tiffany running to hide,

"A.. isnt that person familiar. wait those bags looks kinda familiar hor..?"

(4 of us walk towards there)

Puiying : Isnt that See Theng bag?

We reached the void deck and Pui Ying saw the birthday book and then I tell her " Very obvious le ba..? =)) "

And we went to search for tiffany they all. haha. And the party went successfully. *Cheerios*
We had our group photo taken. =DD and video clip too.

We went to block 49 sumting to have our meal and then it rain.

So, See Theng, pui Ying, Ellin, Eunice and I, we went to Jurong Point to do window shopping. Haha. i saw this specs I take an fancy to le. But com'on $90++, I got to think about it first.

Anyway, we shop until 4 sumting and went home. So tired le. =DD Wad an nice day. =))
Yea.. happy birthday!
Dam. My PC spolit 2 days after I blog. haha. Anyway. Where was I? Haha. Oh Merci. lolx.

That day at CO, Zhiti treated me to the last few sticks because the others were given to Cello Base group le. I took 3 sticks. the first was delicious so I went for the 2nd. Arha! i bite a bit and immeidately spit it out. I went on for the 3rd stick. And I spit the bit out again.
And at that time, my juniors return and I asked them kindly if they are interested or not. But I did tell them, I bite before and help them to tear the bit I ate.
Haha. And their reaction was same as me, but I manage to force them to gulp it up. Just the thought of how their expression changes.. wahaha. How evil. =DD
Oh fine. No more expression changes show for me to see again. Sad eex?

Last week was so boring. My PC spolit and I was rushing out sum things and almost break down.. or should I sae.. I have break down? Hey! The stress and pressure is so overwhleming.. "I feel so small"!

And I cant stay back for DNT last week because of remidial, teachers going overseas, blah blah. And waste 1 week of hoilday. sigh.

Life so boring. i chiong Sassy girl Chung Hyang twice last week. Haha. They are so sweet. 0^.^0