Angst, the type of angst where it makes no sense, and hence, hello blogging. It make no sense, because i am not involved in it, i am a outsider, but it is enough to ruin my day.

Conceitedness. A level higher above confidence. to be discovered only after months of acquaintances after the constant tainting of my favorite social media hangout. It seems that conceitedness always come with a gifted tongue.

Seems to me some misunderstandings happen, and now it erupts into a child war by vocabulary-rich yet senseless kids. seriously. I am lame, but that? it's lamer. sounds cheesy, but i believe to be acquaintances out of the many possible combinations we are open to, is worth cherishing it, not to mention there's a possibility of friendship. lol, that sounds funny, but heck! Well, my point being, why not just forgive. :( Why develop it into a word war. :( Whine whine why.

And i think I complain a lot more recently. Ah, probable due to the greediness instilled in me. the yearning of more, so many unnecessary wants unfulfilled, source of my complains. Have been going "I want to this and that" a lot more than in the past too. :( i want to feel content, just like the contentment i had back when I was in SGH.

life's great, i should stop complaining, but i am feeling no kick. :(

amused at how first and second world is differentiated., and that there is fourth class. 

amused at how people jump at new technologies, technology is changing, and i am getting tired of switching from one social network to another. facebook, twitter, google plus (which glad-fully i didn't use at all) and recently path. 

amused at how social networking has played a part at outcasting. 

maybe i should try going offline for a 24 hours one day. everything is virtual and I'm tired of it.

22 May 2011 - Updated Day 6 and Day 7 together! ^^

anyway, here's the link for the TW trip
Day 1
Day 2
Day 3
Day 4
Day 5 
Day 6 
Day 7

birthdays birthdays more birthdays. 

lazy to make cards now. :/

thinking if i should buy or make a card next week. 

picky friend leh. hehe. 

maybe i should buy? hmmm. 

Let me worry about the gifts first.

i miss my two colleagues really badly. I miss Sujun whacking me whenever she get excited talking about her ec, I miss Siew Ee offering insight to the way people act. I miss both of them a lot. So much whenever I pass by their cubicle I will look inside only to see empty desk and chairs, and get myself disappointed even though I expected it.

I miss taking bus to Connection 1 and eating the bah chor mee with them and buying Gongcha. 

August would have been perfect without their departure. 

Like seriously perfect. damn. 

Now I have to survive on my self entertainment, which eh, apparently is serving me well so far. -.-

thanks god for my childish-ness?

I don't know whether to laugh or cry LOL.

July!

urghh it's end of july already. ): had to bid farewell to one of my friend at work soon. but it's okay, we should meet up soon again!! :) and next week i will have to bid farewell to another friend at work, sigh, and then 1 month later, I will be bidding farewell to my workplace and probably start school. Used "probably" because I have yet to be confirm (but i believe the chances are pretty high).

Well, I would say July is a spontaneous month. Having last minute meet up, cancellation at last minute, change of plan (so often i lost count) so on and so forth. Went for various gatherings which makes me happy, makes me moody, but what's left to stay now is happy mood. :D probably got to thank luck for finding this job at SGH. 

There's this day when I was very disappointed and I felt moody even the next day, and my disappointment ended when I had lunch with my friends in SGH. Nope, i didn't talked about it, but it just ended. just like this. sometimes I'm fascinated by how my mind works. :) 

Hmm wait, there's actually 2, but the another one is my fault for misinterpreting the sms. I re-read again and realised I totally got the meaning wrong, and I hurried to clarify and clear everything up.

Well, but overall, this month has been a pleasant month. I have to thank my current workplace because the environment makes me a happy person. The previous few months before I started working in SGH was the darkest moment in my life, lifeless and sad person the environment molded me into. I can feel the depression in me even when I was with friends, and I lived everyday (including weekends) thinking "damn, i have to start work soon). that sucks, and that accompany me all the way until weekday comes and I have to work.

But now, no matter where I'm, I'm happy. :D well, not always happy but generally joyful. it's a feeling i hope it wouldn't disappear soon. 

Well, i'm starting to limit myself to 2 days out per week starting from the last week of July. i need balance. and I need a new notebook because my current notebook is going to be finish up soon. 

next month is probably the month to go with the flow, as according to my friend who i have to bid farewell to on Monday. ): and i hope that flow has better be a smooth one, like really really smooth.

okay shit, i miss blogging. i miss typing all the thoughts I had and then backspace backspace as and when I like. but nope, I'm lazy to maintain both a blog and a hand written diary. so, once in a moonlight i will be back. okay, probably once in a month. hahahaha, see, i love typing random thoughts like this.