见到你，原来会心痛，因为我到那是才发现你我始终是不一样

Halo!! Ops. been such a long time since I upload liao. What a long 10 days.. Kaes, let me see if I can still remember some bits and pieces of this 10 days.

Last Wednesday was our speech day. I'm glad to be in Co cuz we get to go home early! muzhaha. Afterwhich SingHui and I went to Bugis to shop shop. We took a cab there and then shop for about 3 hours - argh.. It's like not enough lo. I brought quite a number of things and is glad to purchase the pant which I saw with Pui Ying few weeks ago. The feeling when i saw it was like really veri touched. I really dunno that I could be so lucky. However, tat's not a happy day fer me, espeically after I went to OCBC to put in money.. Make my day so moddy.. luckily it was in the end when this happen. Phew. Ok, dun bug me wad happen, I wun sae!

Okie, den fast forward to this week, today.

Today's the day I had antipated most - SYF Judging. This day meant a lot for me - last day of CO, severing my ties with my sheng, and results.

After today, there will be no CO for me, after going there every session for 5 years without fail. From Sec 1 to Sec 5, from Jonathan to Kevin, from 狮王争霸 to 风, from nothing to everything, from 谢老师 to 晓芳老师 . I seen though so many events during this 5 years. Now to think back, haha, how times files, isnt it?

At least I had a sweet opening and ending - Sec1 was very sweet. Jianrong, Quan Yong, Pei Ling are the pillars for that year.

I remember the 1st time when i step into CO, I was supposed to be in Dizi but Xie laoshi came and asked me to join Sheng, I went and began my 5 years of CO. PeiLing and I immediately tag along well. I remember the 1st CO combined session which is really fun, I remember how Jian Rong and I laugh over Suona because they look like red tomato when they blow Suona. I remember how proud I was of Quan Yong when he came in 2nd in the SYF Youth Judging. I remember how Pei Ling and I laugh when we were cracking jokes in the bus. But as CO combined become frequent, I didnt tok to Jian Rong as we did last time, our conversation became shorter, our distance longer. I remember how pity I feel when Quan Yong got to leave for O levels in April. And that Sheng is always welcomed at home. 1st year, is quite okie.

2nd year, things worsen.Pei Ling and I severed our friendship ties after Mega concert, I dun wish to comment too much on it. And the June Gentings Highland trip, worsen things. Life -

3rd year, SYF judging. I was scolded by Xie Lao Shi time and times after Jian Rong leaves becuase my skills are not good. haha. Jian Rong leaves after Speech Days. No, I didnt feel anything. I'm just afraid if I'm able to survive on my own or not. Sec 3 - is just a repeat of Year 2, isnt it?

4th Year, solo solo solo. 童年的回忆, gaoyinsheng 's solo. How stress, how scare I feel when no one's beside me to give me support for that numberous performance, Cutlrual Night, CO nites, temple performance and etc. Xielaoshi left too. I was sad, I was sad. Glad that I wun be scolded anymore. Sad that our founder of CO is leaving. I survived the scoldings, the falls, almost everything until April. Luckily Kevin came in at that time. I remember bullshitting with him and Sebastian when I first saw them. Haha. That's when I thought CO's was auctally not bad for the 1st time after 1st year.
Kevin and I will be always folling around, in a cruel way. He knocked his sheng onto me becuase I "snatch" his handphone, and we critized each other but we will laugh together in the end. Den it's time for a long rest - GCE N levels. haha. After Ns, around Nov, he will keep on ask me to go back to CO to save him. But I only came back once on the 18th Dec because I'm working lei. Wad a nice 18 Dec. We tok so much that day.

5th Year - Life goes on in an interesting way. As usualy, CO combined is just a chatting day for me. We will be there laughing at each other, giving each other names or just steeping, hitting each other. haha. Just like with Jian Rong, I will be the one blowing softly. I dun have confidence, so I dun dare to blow loud. So let them perform! wahah. For the 4th months, I was slacking and didnt memorize scores, so i have to resorted to cheating. ARGH! Again! hehe. so funni. And this time round, both Kevin and I offically cheated. Whereas in the previous SYF, Jian Rong didnt lo! And the suona guy, haha. Really funni. And that reminds me of Sebastian who makes his sheng during the sectional the week before. Lol.

Whatever I done today for sheng will be the last time - from unpacking, to washing pipe, to wearing CO costume. 5 years daily weekly rotine ends with a full stop right there. The moment I closed the sheng, I will never touched it again. The moment I step out of drum room, I will never step in again. Everything, just return to where it should be, isnt it?

At least I'm glad, I didnt give up my CCA. I preserve despite the storms and weathers. And managed to enjoy the fruits of labour. But wait, if I had never join, will I be hapier without needing to feel devasted over leaving CO? Well, I dun regret my actions anyway. Cuz at least, I got sweet memories there...

Well, I got to go off soon to revise my A maths. I dun wanna break record again!

Tuesday :
I had Napfa for 2.4km and I failed! OMG! Failed! Anyway, I dun wanna pass. It seems like only two of us - Huplian and me haben take the exam. Lol! Everyone past alreadi. I should have past already but I miss the chances - either CO or I'm tired and stop at 3 rounds.

Anyway, I just failed. Sinz.. tmr PE again. I'm so tired~ CO's so horrible today. I had the hell from blowing and from the steppings of foots. I'm already putting my cheating into real use and I should test it on this coming Friday, muzhaha.

Today teacher was real angry at Sebestian and another guy because they were playing and toking all along! haha. no.. and they dragged us down. The teacher keeps on asking us to repeat blowing and blowing until both Kevin and me were feeling pain from our throat. And it hurts! The worst nightmare comes after CO.

Weiyan they all went home first, leaving mi, Kevin and another new Gaosheng guy. We were locked from CCA room, Drum Room and even AVA room! And I got to move 2 sheng by myself from AVA room to Drum Room twice. Tiring ya? Luckily the 2nd time, Kevin help me by carrying his own sheng, anyway, he ought to do so.

Hehes! Just 2 more weeks and cya CO! Hehe!

Nites was scary for me. I do my homework until 1+ in the morning, until I'm really lifeless!

Wednesday:

Yesterday was a nice day for me. At least I talk with Jia Wei and lessons dun seems as bored as in the past, when both of us are like strangers and I do really feel like sleeping in class last time!

I was late for school yesterday because the 6:45 and 7:00 bus was full! The bus just drive past the bus-stop. If it's term 1, I will turn back home adn play PC until about 9 before I go schooling. But today, I didn't. I just continue waiting for the bus. I was late.

I was susposed to run Napfa test today- 2.4km but I didnt because it was raining! Yipees! Alrite, let's just skip to after school, Ellin and I (with tiff too!) chiong home to watch tv, lol.. to watch Nezha . haha. When we reach the bus stop, I saw Yuling, Xueli and Catherine at the bus-stop. Even Sebastian when I was abut to board my bus. Oh Pui Ying and See Theng too. I guess I was realli pissed off when I went up to the bus and realised my ez-link card was with Mr Govin! (I was late, you see) . I rushed back to school and by the time I got out of school, it was raining heavily! I was drenched.

Okie, i reached hme, bathe, use PC and then go for Parents' meetings with ym family.

I was really grateful to Mr Yeo for helping me convincing my mum that " I was auctally not that bad". Phew, especially my Amaths.. never pass in term 1, not even 1 test. And my attendance.. luckily Mr yeo didnt mentioned that.

Friday:

I woke up late today morn and I though I was going to be late again! I didnt, luckily! I was afraid that the bus will be full again so I take another bus to the busstop in front of Westwood and alight there. At 7:05, the bus haven arrived. At that minute, a lady tap me from the back and asked me if I'm a Fuhua student and asked me to get on the taxi. Another gal (most likely Sec 1) alight it too and 3 of us took the cab to school.

It turns out that the lady was a teacher (a newbie too) and I really wanna laugh. Her action's and speech in the taxi is almost an exact replica of mine when I was working in Zara. I was real late that day and took a cab to Vivocity, I was late (well, my comission was halved before that day already) but still manged to keep 1/2 of my comission. Phew. Well, it brings back memories again.

Today's quite alrite in school, except Social Studies. I t get really boring because I was sitting alone. Anyway. everything's quite alrite today. At least I dun feel bored for most of the time. hehes! Cyaz all!

I got to chiong A maths and English homwork already. hais hais!

Hehes. Finally watch the first movIe in tIs yeAr le! It came a lita too laTe thought~~ Anyway, i watch Haunted School and the scary screen are quite okay for me, although I did a lita emotional during the 1st haf of the show. I scream, I kik, I do wadever to release the fear. But it gets alrite after a while. I even start to enjoy.

School's quite g0od for me, and I'm happy with myself for understanding Integrations of trigometry. Goodness noe how hard it was for me for differentation of trigo. I'm still pretty weak at the graphs of Differentation. Hopefully, my intergration wun fail me.. and that my hard work will pay off. Auctally school's is pretty boring for me, but still got a year to go! Gambette!

Damn curse my form teacher, he call my mum up for parents meeting.. what for? And my mum told me she will be going. OMG~ I dont wan her to go because the speaker is my form teacher. Heaven knows what he's going to say to my mum when I go MIA from school so many days, chemistry file done so badly and my tests! I never pass before. lol.. I'm dead if my mum really go for parents meeting.

I don't know why, but at dinner today, I suddenly asked my mum this question - if I gt less than 10 marks for my Os, what can I have. Hm.. I dunno why but I just wanna raise the quetion of "if I got 10 marks", I have not think "wad I want as reward", i dont want to get money from my mum because I wanna earn them myself, my parents wun be dere for me always. Anyway, I dun want rewards from them.. I wanna get them thought my ways! 10 marks.. I don't think it's difficult to get that auctally..really.. but just that I want or not! Wahaha. And halo.. MOE (or isit the school?) will give extra cash too. hehe.. $500 if I'm not wrong. YESH!

Anyway, that's e ambitious side of me.. Another part of me just wanna enjoy Keroro Gunso! hehehe.

Hm. Todays the last day of hoilday and I got to return to school tmr. Argh! Tired.

Alrite, I done some revision for A maths and Phyics on Friday nites until 2++. I managed to memorize 1 pages of Phyics notes. ehe.

On Saturday, I had CO in the erly morns from 6:30. It was so tired and I had difficulties talking (because I dun feel like) and anwering. However, yesterday was quite a fun one, keep on bullshittng with my junior. haha.

After CO ends at about 12pm, Elli, ZhiTi, Jermain adn a ex-cello student went to eat at CU. We have a short conversation after we eat and went home at about 2.

Den I went to Sakae Sushi buffet with my family at around 5.30pm when I was catching some sleep. *yawn* The queue was very long and I only managed to eat at about 7:20pm. the food are quite good but I'm too full already. hehe.

I had a short conversation with an old pal of mine (we known each other for about 10 years le) and I think I will be going to Innova JC. Actally I had no idea what is that shcool all about and where it is, but there's something precious inside which is really dear to me. Many a times I asked myslef if is this really preicious after so many years, I couldnt give myself a answer. But last month when I saw it, I knew- no matter the years, it's still veri preicious to me. =)

Haha. To say this old pal, I remember how life was for us in the past. The three of us were good friends in the past and then haha. We did have many fun memories together. All three of us are leading different lifes now- secondary school, Poly, JC. Each of us live a separate ife. We are not the 7 year old kids who goes to different school yet the same time. haha

How times flies woh!

At around 9, I went home and then do some HW until 3am before I went to doze off.

~~~~~~~SundaY~~~~~~~~

I didnt attend tuition today because I had sore throat (it's been dere for 1 week already) and sleep instead. I wake up at around 1++ to have lunch and went to sleep again and wake up at about 6pm. So i had sleep from 2am - 6pm. I wished I could sleep more. I'm really damn tired.

Kaes. Sunday completed!. =)

Today's the last day of March Hoildays le. I have got one regret dring this march hoildays, which is on Wednesday! I didnt manage to get the pants I want. And now, I'm always thinking of it.. almost going crazy over it. I guess this is 2nd time in my lifetime missing an item so much. First is in P6- a nice watch which I couldnt get it at all, even after 5 years and I still cant find it. Next is this pants.

For this pants, I almost drag my sister to Far East on Thursday because I really like this pants a lot! ut in the end I didnt, since my sis was so tired already.

Alrite, this whole week is an fantiscatic week for me- it feels so great althought it get quite boring at times. neverless, I still enjoy it a lot! Everyday at least 9 hours of sleeps, 4 disc of Keroro, 3 hours of computer, 1 days of shopping. What can be rotten than this? I just simply luv it.

But I didnt have chanced to touch my homework, and I guess I dont wish to too, so just leave it until Friday nites.

On Wednesday, I went out with my friends and expected, Eunice didnt come. but Yuling cam! Yipee! hehe. We went to shop and my heart sank to the very bottom when i found out my pants was not there already.. but I tried my best to flash my smile anyway. I went to every store and asked for that particular pants but I cant seem to find it. As we goes, my heart sinks.

We also managed to get 2 neoprints. yeah! I cant help but miss my long hair. Anyway, wad's done cant be undone, all I can do is to admend it. So I would be cutting it again until it get's real long, especially my front, I dont care the length and shape it will have. I will only cut it until it get's really long.

Den we went to shopping, of course and then to supermart before going home. Shopping in a group can get quite boring at times because there are too many people and it's knida diffcult to shop. I prefer shopping with just one or two person. =)

I went to newbie because Ellin told me that there's one pnts similar to the one I brouhgt. Ya.. it's really quite similar but the first one I saw is much more nicer. Anyway I brought home and find it easy to match with other pants. =)

Next I brought drinks and coco cookies home. and that ended my day. It's an sad shopping trip. Everything fades with my pants not found.

On thursade, It's kinda relaxing. I went to buy food with my sista together and then I chiong about 7 disc of Keroro that day and even watch Nezha (1999).

Thanks to Ellin! She told me in the MRT train on Wednesday when we are going home. Tat sure brings bak memories. I remember the days I would chase over this show and even had it taped up and re-watch until one went spolit and I was so angry that I banged it. haha. That happen in my old house and everything is so vivdly clinched on my mind. I remember how I mourned for Leizhenzhi and Daji snce they didnt get together eventully and I alwys feel quite sad for them. In the end, the real Daji was sealed up in an bottle under the evil Peach tree (I think that's it!) and her soul flew before LeiZhenZhi's sight. That's really a sad part.

Okie, after that, i continued to chiong Keroro again. haha. So sweet and so funni. Well, it's veri lame too but lame show makes me relax and this is what I need! =)

Ok. den night fals and I watch Memoirs of Geisha. It's alright though and this is the 2nd time I atched it. Thanks to the book1 I really luv the book a lot, i read it twice too. I dont know why, but I really like the book a lot, it shows me how a gal grows up until she died and when I read it finish, I will read it from the starting again! It's just wondaful.

Okie. Friday came. Another day at home chionging all my shows. =)

Nicey day. But not tomorrow. It's CO. It's alrite, another 2 weeks to go and cya CO! =)

argh~ I'm so lazy. I dun wish to continue my trip on China, although it's fun. Alrite, quite a lot of things has happened during this whole month, including Zara things and a lot.

Let's say about Zara. I'm glad that there's justice in the world. Although some of them ight be sad. When I returned to Zara on the thursday before CNY, suddenly I understand how complicated the adult's world can be, in fact, it's frightening. Stealing, threatening, vying of place, acting and even racialness.. everything can happen. People who looks perfectly cheerful stealthings, and I'm glad one of them deserved it! keke. At least another friend agreed with me.

Whenever I think of Zara, hm, I will be remembering how the bunch of Chinese will spend time in the fitting room just to gossip. haha. So fun. Anyway, that's history. I guess I won't want to do that anymore. i wanna try other stuff. =)

Hehe. So far I went to almost every Zara in Singapore, except the one in GWC. I wondered will it leave me an big impression? Well, at least I luv Marina Square one most! Hehe, got a nice time trying the shorts and dress.

Okies, I'm too engrossed in thinking of how to spend my March Hoilday. So far, only one meeting is organized- which is Wednesday.

We are planning to go down to Bugis Vilage. To say frantically, I reckon only 5 will turn out instead of 7 in the end. Yuling will have something on later (well, that do always happen when we went for group shopping) and Eunice (eh, she will drop out last minute for quite a lot of time). Maybe it's me, because I'm sick.

Thanks to many many ice-cream which i ate on Saturday. Oh well, I had a bloody Sunday fighting with sor-throat and Monday fighting with fatigue and lose of appeitate. Today, I had a bad cough which made me break into tears (tears on the bringe of falling) and went home ealier than expected (I skipped English and Chemistry). Hehe. Then I sleep. Really vexing and taxing. Got to sleep more so that I got energy to shop till I drop tomorrow. hehe!

Alrite, guys, cya~~