offical graduation date

it's official! I will be graduating on the 25th of May! I don't know what I'm feeling, I'm afraid, I'm excited, I'm sad and I'm remorseful.

I actually felt excited because I get to attend my friends' graduation day instead of getting to attend my own graduation day! there are so many what-ifs that is caught in a while loop in my mind. like:

iCount = 0 


while not graduation_day. EOF
what_if_thoughts = iCount + 1
 
 wend 


I have those really positive what-ifs and those really negative what-ifs and certainly I hope the negative what-ifs doesn't come true but I'm preparing myself for the worst what-ifs. Sigh, I can't believe I'm actually psyching myself the day will be a bad day, and that makes me afraid more than excitement.

I'm remorseful because I'm graduating with JUST a diploma. Arghhh, i don't wanna repeat the reasons why I'm so remorseful blah blah blah. I'm already as negative as I can be towards the graduation day already, I don't want to make the situation a even messier one by thinking about the redundant past.