Emotional mI =(

Time: 12++ in the morning.. lols. first time I blog so earli! =)

Juz bak from work.. naH.. not a happi dae.. sianz.. maybe bi'cuz of sumone.. hais.. siaNz!

I wake up at 6:45am todae.. but I blur blur go and turn on the charger of the handphone instead of turning on the water heater.. lols.. den I went bak to sleep. At around 7.10am, I wake up again and OMG! I realised tat I didn't turn on the water heater.. so I juz cursed and immediately changed le.. without bathing.

I reach dere in time and was realli sleepy and siaNz.. no mood lor. So I wouldn't write too muz for todae.. All about work onli mah. Summore I was lye so sianz.. cuz of tat summore.. Nah.. Hebi-hiam or Yen.. um.. onli one person can realli guess hu it is.. cuz I told her be4 le.. but none of my close friends know about tis.. shh..I wun tell em.. paiseh leis.. to all dear close friends.. because she is among u!

I was a lita bit "high" during evening-nite bi'cuz Sharifiah realli roxs my friend.. um.. she boost the lost-confidence I had and I was realli glad tat she is in Zara.. hahas.. she is realli a good friend dere.. of course.. Audrey is the best! Woohoo~ Heard tat huh, Audrey? Hahas. =P But a bad ting is her friend Zora.. isn't tat close to mi.. lols.. I'm much more closer to Audrey.. but sianz.. she left.. I wondered I've repeating tis how mani time but I realli do lye to sae tis.. although I hab long adjusted to life without her.. juz let mi repeat and juz go along wit mi.. hahas.

Auctalli I feel quite lost.. I was wondering hu I'm closer to in Basic.. I realli can't find one.. siaNz.. Realli wish tat Audrey 'll come bak to work.. =( Oh.. maybe I will be closer to Rena.. dunno y oso.. hahas.. Maybe I'm addicted to gals hu's chinese is bad but english is beri pro de ba.. dunno leis.. But I realli hab diffculties answering the qns asked by other people.. lols.. dunno y.. mayb cuz I'm low esteem (which one should never never hab!!!) and scare tis scare tat (low confidence).. hahas. (bitter smile).

I'm being compared with my sis at home, being compared with my friends at school.. hahas.. Confidence of myself? Nah.. tat wouldnt be mi! No wonder Mr Koh asked mi not to compared myself wit others.. (Sec 1 tat time alreadi). Impossible.. I've tried for years and years.. nothing changed.. hehs.. I'm competitive!

Hehes.. mayb cuz of tat.. I'm closer to Audrey.. cuz she realli do boost my confidence easily!.. dunno y.. hahas.. lols.. hm.. maybe cuz she's beta with words huh?! lols.. dunno la. Hahas.. Rena is oso another one.. I realli tink she's a great gal too.. but I dunno.. lols.. but I do hope we can tag off well. =)

Hm.. paiseh sia.. lols.. I'm usualli beri emotional during midnite de.. it happen every year at Dec de.. lols.. last year oso lye tat.. send tiff a sms during midnight juz to thanks her fer being with mi for so mani years.. hahas.. touched by all the cards and letters she gave mi over the years.. lols, but she dun le.. now.. lols.

Oh.. to return bak.. lols.. let mi retink adn retink if anyting interesting happened.. hm.. nope.. Juz tat I done quite a lot of soul-searching todae.. tat's all.. tat explain y I'm so moodi todae. No, should bi sae.. I'll bi moodi when I'm doing soul-searching. Hahas

o0o.. sianz... tmr viviocity midnight sales.. aiyaya. Neutral.